Because of You...

Because of you,
I'd lie motionless
on the floor
in the dark room,
waiting for your return,
just so you'd put me back in your mouth.

Because of you,
I'd sit patiently,
without words to anyone,
sipping drink,
burning a smoke,
just to hear you ask me to come home and
fuck you after you got off.

Because of you,
I let the one true love,
well,
what I have determined as my one true love,
stop loving me,
move on and marry,
just so I could hear you tell me
that I was the best you'd ever had.

Because of you,
I'd let myself drive after drinking
so that I could remind myself
we were nothing but fuck buddies
and never could be or would be
anything more.

But...........

Because of me,
you got angry and stormed off into the dark,
to climb behind the wheel
and speed off into the night.

Because of me,
your daughter can't talk to you
about the things I'll have no idea about,
and your parents
can't hold you in their arms.

Because of me,
there are flowers every Friday,
a song every Wednesday,
and the family that should have been
is not.

Because of me,
I never let myself see
that all the times you told me
that you loved me,
you actually meant it.