Monday, May 24, 2010

Lost will never be lost.




6-years ago, on September 22, Oceanic Flight 815 went down somewhere in the South Pacific between Sydney, Australia and Los Angeles, California. I'm sure you know the rest of the story.

Today, somewhere around 10 million (just a guess, no evidence to back that claim up) bloggers/journalists/heavily opinionated religious folk and a few PETA supporters (just a hunch) have all given their 2-cents about what it was all about.

They keep saying that their questions went unanswered. And pondering what the purpose of this, that and the other thing were. and as they type their complaints, maybe they are missing the real truth behind the show?

These people are entitled to their opinions, as am I. I can't ignore what they write, nor should you. That was, after all, maybe a point that creators and writers were trying to help us see anyway, no?

In my honest opinion, I feel deeply that this show wasn't about any single religion, or power struggles or mythology like some have suggested. To put it simply, the show was about finding who it is that is inside of you. And what it is you actually love.

Perhaps this island that Oceanic Flight 815 (my hometown area code by the way) wasn't really an island? Maybe the lives that all of the "survivors" lived after the crash on that island, weren't really lives? Maybe they were all dead before they even boarded that plane?

What if the lives they lived before that day; as a doctor (Jack), a musician (Charlie), a con man (Sawyer), an on-the-run murderer (Kate), a one time Monk (Desmond), a torturer for the Iraqi Republican Guard (Sayid), an enforcer for the Korean Mob (Jin), a daughter of a rich father (Sun), a teacher who suffers from paralysis (Locke), a multi-million lottery winner (Hurley) and a pooch who loved each of them (Vincent)...weren't really their lives?

I am a Catholic who was raised to believe that when you die, you spend time in Purgatory to await on the judgement of where you will spend the rest of eternity. What if those lives I just mentioned, were each of the characters Purgatory? What if we never got to see them actually alive? That the island was the final waiting room while they awaited their final destination?

Each character, much like each of us, was completely different from all others. But they knew they had to work hard to find whatever it was they were looking for. And they did it together. By putting trust in another human to help get whatever job needed to be done, done. Differences in each of them had vanished and they saw each others true worth. Because they were needed, they found themselves. Because they were asked to push a little harder than they thought they could, they found themselves. Because they believed in something, they knew they would find a way home.

Which brings me to my next idea. When the characters flashed back, sideways or up-and-down and had memories of other characters; Sawyer and Juliet in the hospital, Hurley's big smile before that hug in the Church, Charlie remembering Claire after she gave birth, Sayid saving Shannon from the guy in the alley...they obviously understood they knew each other, somehow. But how?

I know what I believe. And I know what I feel about this show. I also know that, journalism degree or not, I have no idea of how I can relay my thoughts to anybody reading this. When they each had their flashback to a memory of the one they loved, they all realized what it meant; they were dead...and it was now time to go home.

Maybe they were stuck on that island. Maybe they did all escape back to the real world. Maybe the memories, both good and bad, of the time spent on that rock were erased from all. Maybe when they did remember their time their, it signified that their life was over and time to go meet with the others that they loved.

I know that this show was about finding our own inner peace within ourselves to fight the demons hidden inside. About having faith, not any particular faith, but just faith, that mankind can help, care and love. About making changes in ourselves to be better people. Having a belief that we can do what is needed to be done. To not see the physical differences in people and pass judgement. That the people you chose to love, and those you chose to let love you, need to have each others backs when needed. And to always travel with your dog.

Before yesterday, the last time I cried was, I think, sometime in 1999. But seeing Kate and Jack with that kiss and the proclamation of love that followed, Sawyer asking Juliet out for coffee after the vending machine incident and Vincent coming to the side of Jack before he closed his eyes to die...I knew that decade-plus drought was coming to an end and I couldn't stop myself.

Thank you so very, very, very much for the most brilliant television series ever created. It was enjoyable. It was confusing. It made me angry. It made me sad. It made me laugh, scream and cry. But more importantly, it has made me want to believe in myself more than I do, to remember those who have helped and loved me in so many ways and to trust people who are not exactly the same as I. To sum it up, this has made me want to be a better man.

For that, I will never stop thanking you.

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

This and that about that thing called love


Throughout my years, I've heard people say how protective they were of themselves so not to fall in love. That love, no matter how strong and how true it could be, would only end up hurting them in the end.

Love is beautiful and it does hurt, but the pain from love is just as beautiful.

Loneliness hurts and is not beautiful.
Rejection hurts and is not beautiful.
Losing someone hurts and is not beautiful.
Envy hurts and is not beautiful.

The hardest thing to do is watch the one you love, love someone else.

As human beings, we're given two hands to hold, two legs to walk, two eyes to see and two ears to hear. But we're given just one heart. Ever wonder why? Because the other was given to someone else for us to find.

If you love something, let it go. If it returns, it'll be yours forever. If it doesn't, it was never truly love.

The best thing about me...is you.

If you love someone, you're willing to give up everything for them. If they love you back, they will never ask you to do that.

The pleasures of love last mere moments. Heartbreak lasts a lifetime.

I destroy every relationship that I'm in so I don't get hurt. By doing this, I feel guarded and safe, but I'm really hurting myself more in the long run.

I laugh. I love. I hope. I try. I hurt. I need. I fear. I cry. And I know you do the same things. So we're really not that different, you and I.

I get the best feeling in the world when you say 'hi" or even smile at me because I know, even if it were just for a second, I was on your mind.

LOVE: We think about it, sing about it, dream about it and loose sleep worrying about it. When we don't have it, we search for it. When we discover it, we don't know what to do with it. When we have it, we fear loosing it. It is a constant source of pleasure and pain. But we don't know which it will be from one moment to the next. It is a short word, easy to spell, difficult to define and impossible to live without.

If hate is such a strong word...why do we toss 'love' around like it isn't?

I'm nothing special, of this I am sure. I'm just a common man with common thoughts. There will be no monuments dedicated to me and my name will soon be forgotten after I've passed. But I've loved with all my heart and soul, and to me, that has always been enough.

"If you judge people, you have no time to love them."---Mother Theresa

Monday, May 17, 2010

Quote of the Day

"Truth is, everybody is going to hurt you; you just gotta find the ones worth suffering for."

-Bob Marley

Lady Gaga Acapella Cover

Inspired?

Over and Over and Fucking Over

So...I met this girl who is absolutely fucking amazing. She's drop dead gorgeous. She drinks whiskey. She has tattoo's. She is phenomenally jaw dropping in the job she holds. She knows what loss feels like. She has overcame the devastating feelings of a very close loved one who has passed. She knows how to do this, that and the other thing (and I'm not talking about sex). And she makes me want to be a better man.

I told her I was crazy about her. Which I should be. And she told me, ahem, "you don't really know too much about me to be 'crazy' about me."

I told her she was right, but I wanted to know as much as I could about her. I told her I did indeed love everything I already knew about her. She, maybe, brushed it off like the salt from the bar top after a shot of Tequila.

I fear I may have came too strong. Maybe she didn't want to know I thought she was amazing. Excuse me, how I think she is amazing? Maybe she doesn't like the kind of guy I am?

And I know you should never twist work with a relationship, but if she wanted to have a go at one with me, I'd leave the job quicker than the Cubs would lose to the Yankees in the World Series.

This has been the predominate thing in my life for the last decade and a half. Get interested in a girl, take the things she says, or the things she does to me (again, not talking about sex) the wrong way. Maybe I shouldn't have kissed her goodnight the night she gave me a ride home after work. Maybe I shouldn't have kissed her back after she grabbed me while I was trying to get out of the cab we shared a different night after we got off work. And maybe I should just see I can never be good enough for somebody like her.

FUCK!!!

Part 2...We will just be friends. And I'm ok with it. She is much too good of a person for me to not have in my life in some way. I can deal with her just being a friend.